Sing me a little bit of that soul music.

It's safe to say that there are multiple soul mates for a person. After all, we are constantly changing and growing into ourselves. We look for people to compliment "our souls" at specific moments. They teach us lessons about our tolerances, emotions and love us until they no longer do. Then there's that person who changes you for the better, who changes with you, maybe not in the same way, but that's fine because they see your true self and accept you.

I try and maintain the knowledge that my true self has never changed. I tell myself that I'm still the girl with many insecurities, who easily falls in love and values animals, the mind and education. I may change my clothes, hair and the people I hang out with, but I know that I will always be me.

I finally found someone to accept me, when for the longest time I believed that it was normal to date someone who questions your identity. It's a constant struggle within yourself when you try to explain "who you are". Even my explanation of myself is weak and I doubt it will ever be clear. How can anyone truly know themselves when they are constantly being faced with experiences and challenges that test their previous notions?

Who would want to date someone who could sum up their personality and values in a couple of sentences anyways? Complexities are what make people so interesting to get to know. There's that common saying that you never truly know someone. It sounds cryptic, but it doesn't only have to be about not know bad things about people. There can also be true goodness buried in people that is only waiting to be found.

As I reflect on my past experiences in the previous 3 years, I can honestly say that I look at people and relationships in a different way. I place greater value on the constant love from family and friends. I am cautious when it comes to romantic love, but not in a negative, cold way. I remember the feeling of a broken heart vividly, yet I relish in the ability to open up with another person and to be truly accepted without question. Through all the bumps in the road, I have finally come to a place where I'm happy to be loved and to love without guilt. Everyone deserves to be happy and if you're not, you need to change your situation - not your soul.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

What would happen if you woke up tomorrow feeling differently,

feeling as if it's not worth the wait,

wasted time spent wishing you were somewhere else

with someone else, your soul mate?

What if you spent all this time thinking and seeing

wrong?

Will you wake up?

You might just start self defending your

heart from aching and

convince your mind to start braking.

You know you're hanging in there,

but for how long?

Eventually it will catch up to you, yet again.

The doubt.

You know exactly what I'm talking about.

That nagging twitch in your head,

filling you will an endless dread.

You'll see her in the right way,

the way that will lead you away.

And she'll be left in the wrong place

looking in the mirror

and questioning her face.

But, then again -

you could always talk to her

and realize your feelings never

changed.

And that she is who she is.

So stop making worries over it all and

start living in the free fall.

The ground is hard,

but you've hit it before, so you know what's in store.

:D

The Rural Alberta Advantage - "Frank AB"

The Rural Alberta Advantage - "Drain The Blood"

This band has definitely brought me back to my folk indie roots. I strayed, but I am finally home!

Two Door Cinema Club - "Something Good Can Work (The Twelves Remix)"

Fever Ray - "Seven (The Twelves Remix)"

The Morning Benders - "Virgins" (A Take Away Show)

I'm completely obsessed with this song :)

The Kooks - "Ooh La" (A Take Away Show)

Vetiver - "Everyday"

City and Colour - "Love Don't Live Here Anymore"

City and Colour - "Fragile Bird"

The Past

Staring at yet another picture, she begins to form a distorted vision

of the stories she was told and memories she should have never forgotten.

What she sees is happiness but it makes her pathetically sad.

The discarded pile only manages to remind her of death, guilt and decay;

of past emotions captured and forgotten with time.

Birthdays and vacations, full of love and togetherness

conflict with recent pains of growth and separation.

The pictures of a relationship tell the story of a bold, young and careless love

coming to a complicated climax.

Her vision blurs, but she makes out each

awkward smile or toddler's eager grin;

imprinted and stowed away in an attempt to grasp

the fleeting moment undamaged by age.

The discarded pile of the past sifted through, one by one.

Each, a false fountain of youth combatting

the impatience of time.

But the past is just the past.

An overwhelming urge to give in to her emotions overpowers her

and she has to look away from these precious moments

caught and kept safely away,

in a rotting box.

Clingy, Grabby, Desperate People

I've observed it in my own sad behavior and I believe it applies to a lot of people. The fact is, people are fucking clingy. We're convinced that we need others to feel good. Whether it's about our appearance, sexuality, or general nature, we depend on others in order to like ourselves and to affirm our identities.

Many people don't feel complete without constant romantic attention. That attention is addicting since it seems good natured until that attention drifts to another and you're left alone. It's the absence of attention that makes people so desperate and sad after the one person they like - ends up liking another. It sucks when they're the only person you think about, yet they don't feel the same. Sure they like you, but liking you just isn't enough. They need others and they have their eyes wide open - scanning for someone better, someone un

like you.

Love makes everyone a little crazy. I'm wondering if it's possible to have some cont

rol over the future of a relationship. I guess that's what a lot of people wonder when they cling to the person they love - they're confused, unsure if they should hold on and wait for it to be perfect or left go and lose all those cheesy-romantic-flowery-butterfly-u

nicorn feelings.

And what about those warning signs? The ones that tell you not to fall for someone? It's scary to put your heart on the line after being broken once by the horrible absence of romantic affection. Where does one find the guts to crawl out from under their protective rock in order to find someone new? The scarier part is the possibility of being unable to find confidence and happiness within. I had it for awhile, but I can feel myself clinging onto others once again. Does that mean I'm "scared of commitment" like the cliche goes...?

I would sure love to find a guy to go crazy for again, but the thing is, I'm caught between wanting another relationship and finding happiness in the single life. Now that the possibility of a relationship is only weeks away - I'm terrified that I'll lose all my progress and I'll once again become a clingy, grabby, desperate jackass. The main question in my mind is: Is it worth it? My fluttery-fantastic emotions tell me yes, it is very much worth it. But, you guessed it...like a perpetually flipping coin, this problem has two sides and my reason tells me to be cautious - to the drastic point of staying single.

Otis Redding -"Sitting on the dock of the bay"

The Ridiculousness

A pebble dropped in water comes to mind when I think about life in general. The way I see it is like we're all trying to make a big impact, yet the truth is - the only real impact we're making is an emotional impact on others.

This pebble has hurt others in the past and has been hurt in return. It's always surprising to see those same people moving on from what seem like such a large devistating moments. But the thing is, that moment eventually becomes completely insignificant to everyone else but the guilty party. The guilty one is left to assume, regret and ridicule themselves to no end. Maybe if we could see the people we hurt move on, then we too could move on. For the majority of the times in which we inflict pain, this cannot be done. And so, we are left with our self hatred. How can someone get out of this spiral? Does the end lie in trusting oneself again?

For one, it's all about trusting that you have the right judgement when it comes to others. Having "trust issues" seems a universal personal problem with which we can easily dismiss our pain and frustrations. Maybe having trust issues isn't an entirely negative thing. In my experience, people don't intentionally hurt you - but their actions are none-the-less careless and inconsiderate. Being cautious before jumping headfirst into love has the potential to save you from the ridiculousness.

Now the ridiculousness occurs when two people start a passionate relationship where everything appears to be perfect: they could talk for hours, they think about each other all the time, they become reliant on one another for happiness, and they fuck like bunnies. But eventually - ridiculousness kicks in and they become miserable and fed up with each other. They didn't take the time to discover the small things - infidelities, dependency, untrustworthiness, overprotectiveness - that could possibly destroy the passion in their relationship.

So I guess the conclusion I come to is that we have to realize that there is no such thing as perfect as long as we are human. We should enjoy the fun found in having relationships with others. Yet, we should never lose ourselves in the devastation of the waves of careless pebbles.

Cat Power - "Wonderwall Cover"

This cover makes me like the original so much better. Cat Power is the shit.

Incubus - "Drive"

Hello childhood.

Oasis - "Wonderwall"

Oldie but goodie.

LCD Soundsystem - "Dance Yrself Clean"

This song is 9 mins long... and it neeeeds to be longer !!!

LCD Soundsystem - "New York, I Love You"

I'm getting kinda sick of being home. There's only so much love I can handle. I miss being on my own. Taking care of myself was fun, but now I'm back home and it's as if I never grew up. And I'm starting to believe that I didn't. I never expected this - even though I should have. After all, I remember my sis hating being home after first year.

I've started running 5K again. I forgot how much I love it. And it's been so long that it hurts and that I feel like giving up. I know I won't though. I love how it's a challenge. One I know I can overcome with time. I ran it in 35 mins - so I'm super out of shape.

I've always heard about LCD Soundsystem, but never took the time to listen to them. I'm glad I finally did. I've been staying up all night lately and it's a perfect time to find new music.

Ellie Goulding - "Lights (Bassnectar Remix)"

Dirty.

Love is a lovely joke.

I hate the fact I allowed myself to hate someone who loved me. Sure, it's over. But, now I need to realize I was on a roller-coaster ride of emotional foolishness. Hmm. That pretty much sums up love.

(I googled roller-coaster of love and this came up. It completely and accurately sums up the rest of my post.)

The build up is great and your heartbeat deafens your ears - then you fall madly, letting go of everything but the moment. Your head is lost and you grab onto the only person as lost and as scared as you are. But soon you'll find there will be inevitable lulls between the ups and the downs. This is where the ride is truly tested. Will they hold your hand no matter what and talk you through the suspense? And if, at the end, you make it through without puking... you've found the one.

Don Diablo - "99 Fences"

What a beaut.

So here I am.

I'm been listening to great up-beat music lately. Part of me misses those heart throbbing Bon Iver-type songs I used to listen to all the time. But I can't bring myself to listen to them, not now. Not when things are looking up. I told myself that time has made everything better. However, I'm starting to believe that time has nothing to do with it. I've been bandaged up and my bruised ego has healed. Now I just worry the things that patched me up will lose their adhesion and I'll be left as pathetic as I was before. Fuck I was a miserable human being. I embarrassed myself for months. It freaks me out to think that the same thing could happen again. I guess that's why living under a rock has the potential to be comforting.

I could never do that though. There's no fun in living without fear of pain. The problem is that we can never see an end to pain. But, ends do come and happiness happens. So live it up and blindly step into the future.

I'm learning to enjoy the quest to find something better. That's pretty much the only thing keeping me together.

Chairlift - "Bruises"

This song reminds me of all the cool, interesting and complex people I met in Kingston. I miss them all terribly. Once again, I find I would rather have good permanent friends in my life than a romantic relationship that may or may not last.

Linkin Park - "Lying From You"

My childhood. Ya - I was a BAMF.

Let the good times roll

I never really dated much in high school. I'm making up for it now though. I've met some great people who are fun to talk to and live interesting lives. Dark days seem far behind me. There is definitely some more heart break in my future, but for now I'm enjoying the fact guys are swarming me for attention.

Sleeping and dreaming and the men in my head.

It's a little unsettling to be head fucked by your subconscious mind in your sleep. That's just a low blow man.

Noah and the Whale - "L.I.F.E.G.O.E.S.O.N."

Stornoway - "I Saw You Blink"

"Are you the one I've been waiting for? I saw you blink and I missed your eyes, your blue eyes."

Paul Simon - "50 Ways To Leave Your Lover"

It's been awhile.

I think it's because I'm not so miserable anymore. Damn.

Comparisons

Everyone should get a taste of what it feels to be completely lost in someone else. Not having that feeling anymore sucks, but it was worth it. All these ups and downs, regrets, anger - insanity, they are all worth it. Maybe I'll never find that again. But I have I feeling I will. I fall in love with everything so easily. Sure, I'll never have that same love again - it will always be my first. If time proves that it happened to be my best as well, then I can be happy knowing that was lucky enough to have that once.

UR A GLORIOUS HEADFUCK THING... OWN IT.

Dog Is Dead - "Young"

Hold your breath and count to ten.
We're losing touch, we're losing friends.
But we're young!

"Holy Fuck" - Red Lights

Million Young - "Weak Ends"

You ask me to define myself. I'll going to tell you that I'm an electronic beating heart.

Us girls.

Some boys take a beautiful girl
And hide her away from the rest of the world
I want to be the one to walk in the sun
Oh girls they want to have fun

It rings true.

Have you ever watched a movie, a show or read a book where a certain situation hits too close to home? Well it happened to me when I watched the series finale of Secret Diary and it killed me. I'll always love that show. And they just HAD to play the saddest, loneliest song in the history of songs at the end...

The Drums - "Book of Stories"

Summer music to the max.

Angus & Julia Stone - "Just A Boy"

This song is my favourite song of all time. I absolutely crave it every second of the day!!!!! ... Tomorrow I'll probably be so sick of it... but right now I want to curl up into this song like a fluffy clean laundry-scented blanket and fall asleep.

Damhnait Doyle - "I Want You To Want Me"

"She was something of a dream."

And she told herself that everything would be alright.
(Check out Angus and Julia Stone. They are an amazing brother/sister folk duo.)


It's ridiculous how much a cry. I think I could cure a drought somewhere in the world.

The Sentimental Side of Fornication

I love Californication! Here's the sweetest letter (it's so sweet it makes my poor silly heart hurt and my watery eyes all watery) that Hank writes to Karen after he thinks that he'll never see her again:

Dear Karen...
if you're reading this, it means I actually worked up the courage to mail it.
So, good for me.
You don't know me very well but you get me started, I have a tendency to go on and on about how hard the writing is for me.
But this... this is the hardest thing I've ever had to write.
There's no easy way to say this, so I'll just say it.
I met someone.
It was an accident.
I wasn't looking for it. I wasn't on the make.
It was a perfect storm. She said one thing. I said another.
Next thing I knew, I wanted to spend the rest of my life in the middle of that conversation.
Now there's this feeling in my gut.
She might be the one.
She's completely nuts... in a way that makes me smile - highly neurotic.
A great deal of maintenance required.
She is you, Karen.
That's the good news.
The bad is that I don't know how to be with you right now.
And it scares the shit out of me.
Because if I'm not with you right now, I have this feeling we'll get lost out there.
It's a big, bad world full of twists and turns, and people have a way of blinking and missing the moment... the moment that could've changed everything.
I don't know what's going on with us, and I can't tell you why you should waste a leap of faith on the likes of me...
but, damn, you smell good - like home.
And you make excellent coffee.
That's got to count for something, right?
Call me.
Unfaithfully yours, Hank Moody.

That's right. I said it.

My Epic Tale.

I'd like to discuss a dream I had during a nap today. Past all the normal dream bullshit, one part that sticks with me is the part where I was crying so hard that I couldn't breathe and someone I love was sitting next to me, angry as hell and repeating: "Didn't you keep anything?".

The subconscious is an incredible thing. When I woke up all I could think about was that it was referring to my ex's things, but I soon realized that it meant something else that I didn't think about on the surface everyday - but until I heard it being asked, I understood why I've been so miserable. I've simply been punishing myself for supposedly becoming a different person, an awful person. Someone I loved said that they no longer loved the person I have become and it made me confused as to who I am, who I was and who I want to been. The thing is, I am who I've always been. I want to blame my hurt on someone, but they didn't have a clue how easily I could be abused.

My first ever relationship was with a boy who unintentionally questioned my identity. On the surface his comments weren't that bad, but when I constantly felt the need to defend and justify all my actions to someone my love-struck mind found perfect, I knew that it was either end it or go insane.

I went away to school in Kingston and it was the perfect chance for him to amp up his judgmental ways and group me in with the girls he never liked. I felt like I always had to prove to him that I wasn't like those girls. So I guess when I went away, I embraced all the things I avoided because of him. I hung out with people and I made friends. I escaped and I lived. Never once did I do anything with anyone else or even consider it.

So to answer the question that has plagued my relationship and my dreams ("Didn't you keep anything?"): Yes. I kept everything. The fact that I couldn't throw the feelings towards my first love away proves that. I have exactly the same morals, interests and values I've always had. I would still choose to read a book over going out, I am still a hippy hipster and enjoy a good argument. I think the only thing I didn't keep was the same judgmental attitude that keeps some people in a world of hate. I make friends and I enjoy the company of others, especially the type of people who don't care whether I'm a geek, a loner, a drunk, a stoner, or a prep.

I think the moral of this story is that it's so easy to revert to judgmental attitudes and question why people act the way they do to avoid looking deeper and realizing that everyone has a story to tell. I wish I could have know all these things about myself months ago.

Adele - "Someone Like You"

She's beautiful!

My yoga guru!

She's amazing!

Me Month

aka self-love, super improvement, (to please no one but yourself!) month. I only started yesterday, so I'll go for 29 more days after today.

Here are my goals!

1. 1 hour of yoga everyday. (He reminds me of my bro!)2. Drink lots of water. Yeah!3. Eat healthy, stay away from pop, beer, chips and fried foods... and while I eat healthy I must look great too!4. Whiten my teeth with white strips (and smile awkwardly...)5. Stop straightening my hair so often so it will grow faster. (This guy knows what's up.)6. Do my readings for class. I actually don't find studying boring at all!7. Have a positive attitude :D like this monkey. He's so happy on his happy birthday!

If I follow a strict schedule, I think I will easily be able to achieve my goals! (I'm whitening my teeth right now :) and if I feel happier, stronger and most importantly - loved by myself, I'll stick with it... I probably wont do yoga for an hour everyday next month, but I'll switch to high intensity 3 times a week or if it's nice, I'll start running outside again.

Freelance Whales - "Generator 2nd Floor"

This is another one of my happy sad songs. It's about mortality and loving yourself for the short time you're here.

Best Coast - "Happy"

Best Coast - "Bratty B"

Don't be afraid.

(Is it possible to have a blister under a blister? Yes. I have one.)

I wish I had a way to get into certain peoples' heads. It would make living day by day much easier. If I knew that I wasn't alone in this mindset, I would feel much better. I wouldn't be afraid for the future.

Someone Still Loves You Boris Yeltsin - "Think I Wanna Die"

Tanya Davis- Subtlety Spoken Word Performance

Love is simple.

Everybody uses somebody at one point or another. Eventually that person finds out and their heart is broken.

See. Love is simple. Either you both love each other equally or not at all.

I'd have to say that I've loved someone that I lost as soon as I decided to go away. You know that cliche saying: if you love someone, let them go? Well it proves to be true time and time again. If you're not going to let me grow, live my own life, then I'm not coming back; You never had me. But if you support the person you love and let them fly on their own, make their own mistakes, they'll fly back to you each and everyday because they find comfort in the arms that hold them - not constraint.

Throughout this mess, (an over dramatized mess at that) I've learned more about who I am and who I want to be by being told who I should be. In a relationship, there is a need for compromise. If your partner likes action movies and you just LOVE classics, suck it up and watch some mindless violence. But when you constantly feel the need to defend your actions and define yourself to the person that should love you, then compromise is out of the question. The single life is calling for you. It is a time to enjoy yourself because you are lovely and you should be able to love yourself in the simplest moments.

Akron/Family - "Don't Be Afraid, You're Already Dead"

From skins season 5 episode 3!

Coffee was made by the devil

and so was stress. This year is almost over though, so I'm excited to be back at home, hopefully working. But for now I'm going to sleep 6 hours and day and spend most of my time in the library. Also, I must attend to my burnt arm, my blistered feet and lack of appetite. This mess could easily be cured by a few hours lying on a beach somewhere... too bad I'm in beautifully cold Kingston. Damn I wish it were warm. I'm going to miss this place of course, even Vic Hall. It'll be so nice to have my own house though!

I'm sick of being so dramatic all the time. March resolution: Stop being such a tool ;) and make it to April alive!

Clap Your Hands Say Yeah - "Over and Over Again (Lost & Found)"

Lover's Feud

So I was watching Family Feud with my family last week. The host asked the people to name the top five things that might remind someone of their ex.

1. A date/anniversary
2. A scent/cologne
3. A place
4. Gifts
5. And I can't remember the last one... but it sure as hell wasn't Reverse Decadence Chocolate Chip Cookies from President's Choice. I was standing in Zehrs, grocery shopping, when I saw them and held back tears until I realized how pathetic I was being.

I found an interesting article today:

4 Reasons Why You Shouldn't Throw Away Reminders of an Ex

By Michelle Knudson

Every person feels some kind of hurtful emotion when a romance relationship ends. We often get so upset that we end up throwing out everything that reminds us of the ex. Sometimes we throw out things that he or she gave

Here are four reasons why you shouldn't throw away reminders of an ex.

Regrets

We will end up with regrets when we throw out things of someone that was special to us at one time in our life.

You may realize that you do love him or her

He or she is going to feel terrible when they find out that you threw out everything about them. You may need to explain yourself, but in the end it will still hurt them despite what you say. If you two get back together after you threw out everything then they will always, in the back of their mind, know how you once felt.

You can't get it back once pictures and things are gone

Pictures of fond memories and things are the only thing that we have left when we are no longer with the person. A fit of anger can cost us a lifetime of memories that we once lived from day to day to be with that person. Romance love is not something that we should take for granted. No person on the face of the earth is the same person. Nobody is ever the same as someone else is.

You might find closure with things that bring happy memories of the person

Closure can often bring us all a sense of happiness. Things that trigger happy memories with the person will often bring us closure when our heart hurts. We may cry here and there, but sometimes it does mend the heart. Tears over someone that we love are a normal reaction that nearly everyone has been through in life. Closure does not mean that we don't love that person anymore it simply means that we can finally move on without crying every time someone mentions their name.

The Beatles - "All You Need is Love"

Last night: Friend time!

I had so much fun with all my high school friends last night: Alyssa, Maddy, Adam, Jenny, Sam, Rachel, Dino and Alyssa's boyfriend Nevin. We went out for dinner at Turtle Jacks and discussed many inappropriate topics in front of the waitress... then went to see I am Number Four. It was one of those movies that is just so terrible, but you're with good people so you make the best of it by laughing at cheesy lines and making many dumb jokes.

I feel so lucky that I have so many great people in my life. They make dark days seem distant (hurray for cheesy lines!)

That girl.

I told myself that I want to be alone. I don't want to become that girl that goes from relationship to relationship because she can't love herself without someone else loving her. I've been alone before, but I didn't love myself. I've been a relationship, but I relied on him to love me. And now I'm alone again, but this time things will be different.

Sufjan Stevens - "Casimir Pulaski Day"

Chris Brown - "Forever"

This song always reminds me of the Office episode where Jim and Pam get married. Smiles!

I can watch a sunset on my own.

People clash and collide so often, some are just not meant to stick together. I guess what I'm saying is that I could never hate someone that didn't want to stick. I completely understand why they might not want to.

"Hate is baggage. Life's too short to be pissed off all the time. It's just not worth it." - American History X

Adele - "First love"

Lies I tell myself.

"We were like strangers who knew each other very well." - Big Fish (2003)

Sometimes when you miss someone so much it hurts, the only thing you can do is to let them move on and leave them be. Even if you think about them everyday, that is your own pain to bear. Calling them up just to tell them about it wont change anything, it'll just hurt more when it turns out that they don't care.

The Supremes - "You Can't Hurry Love"

Oh boy, I'm in love again!

I'm pretty sure I found the shoes I'm going to get married in, give birth in and get buried in!

my bolding beating heart!

sunny-eyed surprise!
love and kittens! almost as good as kitten mittens ;)
my boldly beating heart just keeps on beating!

Said the Whale - "A Gift From A Black Heart"

I am the girl with the black heart XD jokes.

Things I shouldn't forget (but do anyway) when I'm sad:

- the kindness of strangers and the great feelings involved with helping them
- how I love to thank bus drivers
- friendly hockey rivalries
- short elevator conversations- seeing people you haven't seen in a long time and exchanging stories
- planning outings with old friends
- the smell of laundry, who knew that doing chores could smell so good?
- the warming loveliness of mittens on a cold winter's walk
- the great taste of leftover pasta!- movie romances that would never happen in real life, but I secretly hope they do
- that I shouldn't take myself so freaking seriously- if I don't love myself, no one will
- people make mistakes; they also tend to forget about good memories when they're concentrating on the bad ones
- I should wake up and go to sleep loving myself
- and FINALLY:

you never truly lose anyone, not as long as you love them

Losing Love, Hold on Tight.

Last night I was lying in bed and someone in the hall was showering. It reminded me of when I was a kid.

I'd be laying awake in my bed waiting for my mom to finish showering so she could come say goodnight and I could finally sleep. I was at that young age where it wasn't awkward to say "I love you and let Dad know that I love him too." It makes me sad to think that I went through a phase where I stopped saying that I loved them, just because I felt like I had to grow up.

Now I've reached that age where I just can't help but tell the ones that I love how I feel about them. I tell them because I've experienced the feeling of losing someone I love. I guess that's why I'm holding on so tightly to my old love. I have this image in my mind where we were both happy to be talking to each other. And no matter how many times I tell myself how stupid it is to think this way, I can't help but hope deep down he is the same person. I don't want to accept that I broke things beyond repair, I don't want to lose my friend forever, and I don't want to cry myself to sleep because I know I can't do anything to fix this.

Tchaikovsky - "None But The Lonely Hearts"

This music reminds me of all of the endings of old romance movies.

While You Were Sleeping (1995)

"Do you believe in love at first sight? Nah, I betcha don't, you're probably too sensible for that. Or have you ever, like, seen somebody? And you knew that, if only that person *really* knew you, they would, well, they would of course dump the perfect model that they were with, and realize that YOU were the one that they wanted to, just, grow old with. Have you ever fallen in love with someone you haven't even talked to? Have you ever been so alone you spend the night confusing a man in a coma?" - Lucy

Born Ruffians - "Hummingbird"

I love this song so much :D

The Mountain Goats - "Sax Rohmer #1"

A super creative video!

Grandaddy - "Nature Anthem"

Grizzly Bear - "Ready, Able"

This video is so... fucked.

Tokyo Police Club - "Graves"

Valentine's ;)

Everyone I know is making cute handmade cards, cakes, pies, and cds for their loved ones. It makes me happy to know that there is so much love in the world.

I'm also glad I'm full of love
and not hate this fine Valentine's.

Here's some funny Valentines!