Oh boy, I'm in love again!

I'm pretty sure I found the shoes I'm going to get married in, give birth in and get buried in!

my bolding beating heart!

sunny-eyed surprise!
love and kittens! almost as good as kitten mittens ;)
my boldly beating heart just keeps on beating!

Said the Whale - "A Gift From A Black Heart"

I am the girl with the black heart XD jokes.

Things I shouldn't forget (but do anyway) when I'm sad:

- the kindness of strangers and the great feelings involved with helping them
- how I love to thank bus drivers
- friendly hockey rivalries
- short elevator conversations- seeing people you haven't seen in a long time and exchanging stories
- planning outings with old friends
- the smell of laundry, who knew that doing chores could smell so good?
- the warming loveliness of mittens on a cold winter's walk
- the great taste of leftover pasta!- movie romances that would never happen in real life, but I secretly hope they do
- that I shouldn't take myself so freaking seriously- if I don't love myself, no one will
- people make mistakes; they also tend to forget about good memories when they're concentrating on the bad ones
- I should wake up and go to sleep loving myself
- and FINALLY:

you never truly lose anyone, not as long as you love them

Losing Love, Hold on Tight.

Last night I was lying in bed and someone in the hall was showering. It reminded me of when I was a kid.

I'd be laying awake in my bed waiting for my mom to finish showering so she could come say goodnight and I could finally sleep. I was at that young age where it wasn't awkward to say "I love you and let Dad know that I love him too." It makes me sad to think that I went through a phase where I stopped saying that I loved them, just because I felt like I had to grow up.

Now I've reached that age where I just can't help but tell the ones that I love how I feel about them. I tell them because I've experienced the feeling of losing someone I love. I guess that's why I'm holding on so tightly to my old love. I have this image in my mind where we were both happy to be talking to each other. And no matter how many times I tell myself how stupid it is to think this way, I can't help but hope deep down he is the same person. I don't want to accept that I broke things beyond repair, I don't want to lose my friend forever, and I don't want to cry myself to sleep because I know I can't do anything to fix this.

Tchaikovsky - "None But The Lonely Hearts"

This music reminds me of all of the endings of old romance movies.

While You Were Sleeping (1995)

"Do you believe in love at first sight? Nah, I betcha don't, you're probably too sensible for that. Or have you ever, like, seen somebody? And you knew that, if only that person *really* knew you, they would, well, they would of course dump the perfect model that they were with, and realize that YOU were the one that they wanted to, just, grow old with. Have you ever fallen in love with someone you haven't even talked to? Have you ever been so alone you spend the night confusing a man in a coma?" - Lucy

Born Ruffians - "Hummingbird"

I love this song so much :D

The Mountain Goats - "Sax Rohmer #1"

A super creative video!

Grandaddy - "Nature Anthem"

Grizzly Bear - "Ready, Able"

This video is so... fucked.

Tokyo Police Club - "Graves"

Valentine's ;)

Everyone I know is making cute handmade cards, cakes, pies, and cds for their loved ones. It makes me happy to know that there is so much love in the world.

I'm also glad I'm full of love
and not hate this fine Valentine's.

Here's some funny Valentines!