Vegetarians and Nothing

I walked in on my Dad when he was watching The Prestige with Christian Bale. Being the stalker that I am, I decided to look him up on wikipedia. It said that he fights for animals rights. That got my heart beating fast! So, I checked it on Google... he's veg!! OMG I'm in love all over again! I'm so surprised because I hadn't realized that many other famous people are also veg...for example, Albert Einstein, Leonardo Da Vinci, Mark Twain, Isaac Newton, Vincent Van Gogh, Johnny Cash, Bob Barker, Brad Pitt, Robert Redford and of course, Christian Bale. I'm so happy!

I've been doing absolutely nothing for the past week, alternating between flipping through channels, playing final fantasy, watching weird movies and checking my blog, I cannot find that one thing that will engage this constant need to do something. It's as if I'm being chased and I can't do one thing for long or I'll be caught. Is that what school does to you? I guess it' s designed to be a good thing. No more lazy children. Always thinking that they should be doing something productive. The thing is, I never want to get a fucking job. Sure, it'll be fine for the first month, but after that, I'll be stressed and pissed at "the Man." It's like I can't see my future. I have no dreams. Not anymore. I'm just sitting, I'm alone, the way I made myself, with this annoying voice screaming in my ear, telling me that I have to do something with my life. Telling me, that no matter what I do, I will fail. I'm going to vomit. My heads is pounding, blood trying to escape this disaster waiting to happen. The pressure is getting to me. Pressure from where? I'm asking, but who will answer? Questions are so fucking easy. So easy to ask. But, why ask questions when you don't expect an answer? I'm trapped in this shit, in this steaming pile of shit the world is made of. God, what the hell am I talking about. My life is awesome. Life is beautiful. Do I really believe that? Questions. questions, questions. And more god damned questions. I'm laughing at myself. Are you laughing at me. You can lie if you want. It's OK. I can't hear you. A least you'll be doing something. Filling your life with something. Mine echo. My empty laughs. I'm empty. Emptiness is only comforting when you know that someday it will be filled.

A Perfect Little Christian World

Late one night, I was having one of my religious talks with my mom, who works at a Catholic school and believes in God. I was confused to why people believe that humans are better than everything on the earth. It started because I was bored so I picked up the "Children's" version of the Bible. The first page talked about how God made the world in seven days and on the sixth day he made man, in his image, to rule over everything and that he gave man something that nothing else had. A fucking Soul. "That means he could speak, think and love." Odd, since it has been proven that animals communicate to each other. I'm pretty sure that when I say Dinner! my dog comes running. My animals know how to love and communicate with each other. Just because a dog cannot speak English doesn't mean that he cannot communicate. For example, I can't speak German. Does that mean that I can't communicate? People actually swallow this bullshit. Sure, it's not supposed to be taken literally, but If you ask anyone, they'll say that animals are not equal to humans. They will laugh at you. My mom sure did. She said something like: They are not smarter than us, they do not have technology, they are not equal to us. Maybe animals do not have technology because they know that they really don't need it. Humans sure don't. If animals needed to walk on two legs, they learn, they evolve. It's called evolution. We are all powerful and above everyone else. The truth is that humans rely on plants and animals to survive. If humans were to disappear one day, the earth would heal. Humans use this idiotic belief that they are better than animals to justify their actions. The actions of murder. Animals feel pain, just listen to their squeals. Animals love, just look them in the eyes. Animal's think, they are intelligent creatures. People's heads are so far up their asses that they can't see that God is a creation of our minds. We are fucking fooling ourselves. We are so far into our own make believe world. Our perfect little Christian world. That we cannot accept change.

Exams Over / WordPress

Exams are over for me, but not for others... sucks. And if any of you are reading this that should be studying... well... get back to work lazy.

I'm thinking of switching to WordPress to see if I can handle advanced blogging. I'll still have this one though. I just looked it up and I can not understand any of it. Guess I'm still a beginner. :)

We Are All Very Confused Children

I was sitting on the bus today and was thinking about how everyone seems to be looking for something. And once you find whatever you were looking for, there is always something else that you need to find. So if you spend your whole life searching, then you'll never miss anything right? If only it could be that simple. There are so many people searching that it is impossible to find anything or anyone because we are all looking for different things. It's commotion. Right now for example, I'm trying to find my train of thought. Wait... there found it again. See, you find things and you keep searching. For what? It depends. Answers to questions that make no sense, a reason, an idea, an inspiration or even a clue. No matter what happens you just might never find what you are looking for. It's a leap of faith actually. For me, it's more like I leap just because that's what everyone has done before me. Screw faith. Faith just fills your head with bull shit. There is no such thing as a leap of faith. Faith is not courage, it's false information. You're jumping off a bridge, killing everything, not leaping with your eyes closed into the unknown. Try finding reasons for faith's answers. Wait now I see, it's called a leap of faith because you have to be so out of your mind and full of shit to actually believe that searching will help you find anything. So, there it is. I have no idea where I am. Why don't you take a leap of faith. Maybe you'll find me.