I'd like to think that all my problems are important. I'd also like to think that everyone else sees them as I do. But the sad thing about most people is that they have a strong tendency to exaggerate and lack compassion.
Get ready for the exaggeration.
Once again, I find it incredible how one person can bring you from the lowest point to the highest in the simplest ways. It's so easy to give all of your love away to someone and even easier to either hurt or be hurt.
Whenever I argue I get irrational, my heart beats fast and my mind starts spinning so uncontrollably my mouth can hardly keep up. I say things I don't mean, I even say things that mean so much to me that to hear them come from my own mouth is embarrassing. I'm embarrassed by my dependence on certain people for happiness. I put my entire well-being in the hands of others and when I end up on the floor, I only have myself to blame. So when they stand victorious, surrounded by people and things to do, I am left here in my own pity.
I wish I could stop thinking about certain things. I'm hopeless, I'm also quite useless. My efforts never work. I try and I fail. I fail and I get angry. Thus, losing everything I care about. I'd like to tell myself that I'm alone now, isolated and thoroughly broken, because of you. But the truth is, I'm in this state now, because I just can't escape, I might be leaving but I can't let go.
I'm a drama queen. And I'm alone.
