Sing me a little bit of that soul music.

It's safe to say that there are multiple soul mates for a person. After all, we are constantly changing and growing into ourselves. We look for people to compliment "our souls" at specific moments. They teach us lessons about our tolerances, emotions and love us until they no longer do. Then there's that person who changes you for the better, who changes with you, maybe not in the same way, but that's fine because they see your true self and accept you.

I try and maintain the knowledge that my true self has never changed. I tell myself that I'm still the girl with many insecurities, who easily falls in love and values animals, the mind and education. I may change my clothes, hair and the people I hang out with, but I know that I will always be me.

I finally found someone to accept me, when for the longest time I believed that it was normal to date someone who questions your identity. It's a constant struggle within yourself when you try to explain "who you are". Even my explanation of myself is weak and I doubt it will ever be clear. How can anyone truly know themselves when they are constantly being faced with experiences and challenges that test their previous notions?

Who would want to date someone who could sum up their personality and values in a couple of sentences anyways? Complexities are what make people so interesting to get to know. There's that common saying that you never truly know someone. It sounds cryptic, but it doesn't only have to be about not know bad things about people. There can also be true goodness buried in people that is only waiting to be found.

As I reflect on my past experiences in the previous 3 years, I can honestly say that I look at people and relationships in a different way. I place greater value on the constant love from family and friends. I am cautious when it comes to romantic love, but not in a negative, cold way. I remember the feeling of a broken heart vividly, yet I relish in the ability to open up with another person and to be truly accepted without question. Through all the bumps in the road, I have finally come to a place where I'm happy to be loved and to love without guilt. Everyone deserves to be happy and if you're not, you need to change your situation - not your soul.

What doesn't kill you makes you stronger.

What would happen if you woke up tomorrow feeling differently,

feeling as if it's not worth the wait,

wasted time spent wishing you were somewhere else

with someone else, your soul mate?

What if you spent all this time thinking and seeing

wrong?

Will you wake up?

You might just start self defending your

heart from aching and

convince your mind to start braking.

You know you're hanging in there,

but for how long?

Eventually it will catch up to you, yet again.

The doubt.

You know exactly what I'm talking about.

That nagging twitch in your head,

filling you will an endless dread.

You'll see her in the right way,

the way that will lead you away.

And she'll be left in the wrong place

looking in the mirror

and questioning her face.

But, then again -

you could always talk to her

and realize your feelings never

changed.

And that she is who she is.

So stop making worries over it all and

start living in the free fall.

The ground is hard,

but you've hit it before, so you know what's in store.