Monday, February 7, 2011

An End

"He said that when something ends, we must think that something begins. His advice is salutory, but the execution is difficult, for we only know what we have lost, not what we will gain. We have a very precise image - an image at times shameless - of what we have lost, but we are ignorant of what may follow or replace it." Blindness by Jorge Luis Borges

I'm scared to say it, but I don't see any new beginnings anytime soon. I've made too many mistakes and I've become a bad person. It was a struggle to get up this morning and throughout the entire day my face was a swollen mess and I held back tears every second. I've never felt this low my whole life.

It hurts to exist. I've never hated myself so much.

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