Us girls.

Some boys take a beautiful girl
And hide her away from the rest of the world
I want to be the one to walk in the sun
Oh girls they want to have fun

That's right. I said it.

I can watch a sunset on my own.

People clash and collide so often, some are just not meant to stick together. I guess what I'm saying is that I could never hate someone that didn't want to stick. I completely understand why they might not want to.

"Hate is baggage. Life's too short to be pissed off all the time. It's just not worth it." - American History X

Things I shouldn't forget (but do anyway) when I'm sad:

- the kindness of strangers and the great feelings involved with helping them
- how I love to thank bus drivers
- friendly hockey rivalries
- short elevator conversations- seeing people you haven't seen in a long time and exchanging stories
- planning outings with old friends
- the smell of laundry, who knew that doing chores could smell so good?
- the warming loveliness of mittens on a cold winter's walk
- the great taste of leftover pasta!- movie romances that would never happen in real life, but I secretly hope they do
- that I shouldn't take myself so freaking seriously- if I don't love myself, no one will
- people make mistakes; they also tend to forget about good memories when they're concentrating on the bad ones
- I should wake up and go to sleep loving myself
- and FINALLY:

you never truly lose anyone, not as long as you love them

While You Were Sleeping (1995)

"Do you believe in love at first sight? Nah, I betcha don't, you're probably too sensible for that. Or have you ever, like, seen somebody? And you knew that, if only that person *really* knew you, they would, well, they would of course dump the perfect model that they were with, and realize that YOU were the one that they wanted to, just, grow old with. Have you ever fallen in love with someone you haven't even talked to? Have you ever been so alone you spend the night confusing a man in a coma?" - Lucy

Death of love and the reasons why it dies:

“Love never dies a natural death. It dies because we don't know how to replenish it's source. It dies of blindness and errors and betrayals. It dies of illness and wounds; it dies of weariness, of witherings, of tarnishings.” - Anais Nin

“Anxiety is love's greatest killer. It makes others feel as you might when a drowning man holds on to you. You want to save him, but you know he will strangle you with his panic.” - Anais Nin

People

"People tell us who they are, but we ignore it because we want them to be who we want them to be." - Don Draper from Mad Men Episode: The Summer Man

You're with me...

Oz - It was stupid to think that you'd just be... waiting.
Willow - I was waiting. I feel like some part of me will always be waiting for you. Like if I'm old and blue-haired and I turn the corner in Istanbul, and there you are. I won't be surprised... Because you're with me, you know?

Time.

I'm beginning to forget his face, and the feel of his touch but I still remember the way he smelt and the why he made my heart feel. I never want to forget that.

/Slip away/

“Deep in my heart I’m concealing things that I’m longing to say. Scared to confess what I’m feeling - frightened you’ll slip away.”

- Evita

wickedelicious

"I miss you, like every single second. It's like I lost an arm or worse a torso." - Oz, Buffy

Quote

the sky

Last night I lay in bed looking up at the stars in the sky and I thought to myself, where the heck is the ceiling.

Drive

“As I stared at the books, I suddenly understood that I didn’t know a hell of a lot about anything. What it was that seemed to move me then was that learning was important… I vowed, right then, to learn something new every day. It was a deep revelation, something I felt throughout my whole self.”

- Amiri Barake

“You pierce my soul. I am half agony, half hope. Tell me not that I am too late, that such precious feelings are gone for ever. I offer myself to you again with a heart even more your own than when you almost broke it, eight and a half years ago. Dare not say that a man forgets sooner than woman, that his love has an earlier death. I have loved none but you. Unjust I may have been, weak and resentful I have been, but never inconstant.”

- Captain Wentworth, (Persuasion, by Jane Austen)

The Truth

One foot in front of the other.

This key is to your kingdom
This key is to your heart
Neither one is a doorway
But both of them a part
So one foot in front of the other

- "Avalanche" by Matthew Good

I don't like change.

Dwelling

“It does not do to dwell on dreams and forget to live, remember that.” - Professor Dumbledore, Harry Potter and the Sorcerer’s Stone

Today's pictures and my distractions.

I'm feeling pretty ordinary.
It was worth every moment.
Damn right.
I can't wait to get on with my life. I want things to happen, I want to move on or just bury myself in my bed and never leave.